Biting The Bullet

I sometimes eat out alone. There are times when I want an evening in a restaurant with nice food, a glass or two of wine and I don’t have anyone to go with.  So I take a book and my phone, resist any attempt to seat me in an inconspicuous and cramped corner as if I had a nasty disease, and enjoy my time. I don’t usually read or tweet much as I am too busy people watching, thinking, reflecting and gathering material for new stories. I am also enjoying the sensual experience of the food and the wine. I see no reason to forego these pleasures just because I am on my own and my friends are busy. In fact it is an essential part of self care, self love.

It is the same with masturbation. Although I have three and a bit regular sexual partners most of my sex is solo sex. This too is necessary and is good for my state of mind, my sometimes fragile mental health. Tomorrow I begin the month of April with the aim of having an orgasm a day. 30 days, 30 orgasms or as many as I can manage. .

In the masturbation month of April I intend to have solo sex in all the places I might have sex with a partner, in the loos, outdoor, a quickie in my car, at a swingers club, but also of course in bed. Tomorrow I will start off by making it special. I will have a bath, put on some sexy lingerie, apply a little fragrance, retire to my freshly made bed, light a scented candle, put on some mood music, take out my bullet vibrator, some of my favourite porn, and play with myself, slowly, gently, forcing nothing, aware that my anti depressants might make climaxing difficult, but being in the moment, enjoying my body and finding it beautiful. And if I don’t come I will not consider it a failure. I will practice self care. I will love myself.

I will post weekly about my adventures. For the final day I have something special planned but you will have to wait to read about that.

5 thoughts on “Biting The Bullet

  1. I recognise how much planning self care and being gentile with my own mental health and wellbeing can take, and how deliriously poor I am at making and finding time. So Eve, I applaud you- and all those who achieve this (even for a month). And what better celebration of finding the time? Although good wine and food come a close second 😉
    Enjoy!

  2. What a beautiful post Eve. And absolutely perfectly sums up how I feel about the 30 days of orgasms. No pressure, just wooing yourself and giving that sensual side of you a bit of attention.
    Have fun! 💓

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s